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My mind in a mircowave

FFFFFFFFFFF- Stupid blog wont do what I tell it to :( big spaces everywhereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

RAAAAAAANTT
I cannot take any of this anymore. I cant tolerate people being horrible for no reason. Im fed up of hurting people without meaning to. I cant stand people causing drama within friendship groups. Im tired of being the one having to fix things. I wish I could say no to people. I wish I could be more aware of things around me instead of being in a dream world. I wish I could pack my bags and leave here and not regret a single moment of it. I wish I could be a better person. I wish I knew what people wanted so I could help and resolve things. I wish I knew what I wanted. I wish I was 5 years old again when nothing really mattered. Im hoping people dont hate me but I guess you cant please all the folk all the time. I wish I was good at things so I could have something to aim for. This is all crap, thats what blogs are for, spilling your crap over the internet, crapcrapcrap. Am I allowed to say crap on the internet?

Recently I have been feeling a little under the weather..

Ive decided to start on a little project called

Project: 'Happy Jacket'

Its a little something to keep me occupied whilst I get my head together during these hard times!

Basically im going to buy/make/stitch many many patches of the things that I like/that make me happy and put them onto a denim jacket - then whenever I feel sad I can wear it and BAM we'll have a happy Han as ill be reminded of all the things in life that are good :D

Above: Draft sketch of my friend Jenni Ward 2H,HB,3B pencil

Above: HB Pencil sketch & digital edit of Warrior girl

I was talking to one of my best friends Tash Masztalerz about how ive bought all these new tubes of oil paint and canvases to get me painting again. Though the more I thought about it, I figured that with the amount of paint I have, it wont cover the full face of the canvas as theres too little of it! Tash being an absolute saviour gave me a paste (COLD ENCAUSTIC) that she made for art at uni that enables oil paints to go much further and it lasts a life time!

I love my brother Joe, my friends and outsiders always comment how were so close and that its nice to see siblings get on instead of being at each others throats.

Hes very good at most things; he could be anything that he wants to be.

He writes his own song lyrics and hes a good singer, he also writes bars and raps!

Take a look!

http://youtu.be/vDJifUDll-Y

Now who doesnt like a dancing bear?

DRAW ALL THE THINGS!

This is my motive for today!

Going to start off sketching a few tattoo designs of dasies and roses... then shall move on to a few portraits of loved ones and famous people. Also may start a gift for one of my closest friends. Its getting a bit late in the day but its better to do something than nothing!

Ive also realised that its time to get my scanner fixed as drawings look so much better:

I bought some art materials the other day; acrylic paper for £25, two canvases for £4 (BARGIN!!), some oil paints, white spirit and a journal to keep notes.

My facebook page is doing really well! I cant thank people enough for supporting me - I only thought about 20 people would like the page but so far theres 205! Big thanks to everryyone having faith in me :D